LDS - Part 2

Read LDS - Part 1 HERE.
So I had phase 1 (self-criticism and insecurity) plus phase 2 (timing/cumming preoccupation) working on me, and that prepared the stage for the triumphant entry of phase 3 (total penile core meltdown). The more I worried about it, the worse it got. I got to the point of worrying if my dick would get hard fast enough, stay hard long enough and them cum on cue hours before I thought I might have sex. There are guys who can control those factors - usually porn stars. I am not one of them, so I have to deal with average guy worries. What was most disturbing to me was that I had no problem with turgidity whilst masturbating, so why was I faltering when I was with a hot guy who sent my heart aflutter. I didn't know so I researched it. Initially, it was so embarrassing to type the words "impotence" or "erectile dysfunction" into a search engine, but then, if one is honest with one's self and talks to several trusted people about the issue, embarrassment quickly takes a back seat. Hell, one can even blog about it.
I'm still not exatly sure why, but I do know that it is quite common for a man to have erection issues at the onset of a new relationship, especially if the new partner is someone the guy REALLY likes, but in a deep, emotional way and not just sexually. Well, I fell into that category, so I was greatly relieved that I was not alone. This also reassured me that it was indeed psychologically related LDS in my case. Especially for guys in my age bracket, it most often is; however, for guys 40+, roughly 30% of cases are psychological and the remaining cases are physiological. That can include nerves, hormones, blood pressure, etc.
Then came the disturbing news: with counseling, psycholgical LDS can be remedied - even faster if both partners do the counseling together. I thought, "Oh wow. What a way to start a new relationship. 'Hey, I know we are still getting to know each other, but will you attend IMPOTENCE counseling sessions with me?' GTFOH!" No way was I going to do that. I was disheartened.
What I DID do was run to The Vitamin Shoppe and buy what I call herbal viagra. I actually ran into the VS on 23rd St and 8th Ave. on a quick 10 min break from a class I was in, and without a bit of concern blurted out, "Do you have herbal Viagra?"

Wide shot of all store movement stopping
Cut to:
Close up of clerk's frozen, blank face.
Cut to:
My face, sweating from running to store, full of anticipation.
We hear crickets in the background.

After the store clerk jumped into action, the store resumed its regular activity. He showed me several products and I chose the 2-part Veroxin 7 system and ran back to class full of hope.
Well, because I was having psychological LDS, it worked because I believed it would! But then, after a few days, I found myself confronting the same demons and worries, and well, the problem came back with a vengeance.